this is missy and she's the best boston terrier that ever walked the planet..
i was looking at old pictures on peepee's pc when i came across this picture. she's missy and on april 14, 2009, it will be exactly one year after she died. i miss her so much. i remember i couldn't stop crying when she died. she died peacefully in my arms while i was rocking her and holding her like a baby. until now, i don't know how and why it happened. it was a weekday. i forgot why we went home that day. i was used to greeting missy first thing when i get home. when i went to her cage, i saw her lying down and she didn't seem to be her usual self. she was rarely put on her cage and whether she was there or not, she would instantly jump up and greet me with the loudest barks she could muster. she would even compete with our other dog, chubi, when greeting me. she would run as fast as she could so i could pick her up and carry her to the sofa and cuddle her.
on that day, she just raised her head up and looked at me and then she just went back to slouching in the corner of her cage. so, i went to her and asked her what's wrong. she then looked at me again, and that's when i saw it. her left eye was bulging out. i didn't know what to do. i told peepee about it and we went to her immediately.
my dad was the only person in the house at the time, so i asked him what happened. he said he didn't know and that it hadn't been five minutes since he put missy in her cage when we got home. he said that when he put missy in her cage, her eye was still ok. so, peepee and i checked if her other eye is still good. it was still ok. so, i put some eye drops on her eyes (celufresh-this was prescribed to me when i had dry eyes) because her left eye was beginning to dry out. i gave her antibiotics and had her drink water.
the next day, when we went back home, her eye looked as if it was dried out. i again put eye drops on it to moisten it. then, i noticed that she didn't eat her food. we were giving her kibbles so i thought it was painful for her to chew. so, i took alot of kibbles and pounded them with a hammer until they were powdered. and i started giving her that and milk instead of water. she would only lick it a few times and then she would go back to sleep. i tried giving her food every two hours, but she just refused to eat anything. what i did was i resorted to just giving her milk to nourish her in a way. she initially took a few sips of her milk but she refused to drink any more.
we took her to the vet (fil-chinese veterinary clinic) and the doctors were also asking what may have happened. they gave her more antibiotics and a gel to use on her eye.
good thing it was a saturday so peepee and i didn't have to go to work the next day. peepee stayed in our house, but he had to go home after a couple of hours because he had to help his mom clean the doggies. that was the last time peepee saw missy alive. saturday night, i was force feeding her the milk, i had a medicine dropper and i was using it to give her milk. since she has stopped eating, she was already limp and i always had to carry her on my lap, or carry her like a baby. when i give her milk, i made sure her head was elevated so the liquid won't go straight to her lungs.
monday night. i remember watching tv patrol while she was on my lap, limp and sleeping. during commercial breaks, i would give her milk. then, while i was taking a break from feeding her (the program started again and she was still on my lap), i just felt something hot on my left leg. i didn't what it was until i looked at it. missy was urinating on me. what's weird was because she peed a whole lot of liquid, when fact is, she was barely eating, let alone drinking.
and then it started. she breathed a couple of long, deep breaths and that was it. i kept nudging her and telling her to wake up. but she didn't. i immediately called peepee up and told her missy was gone. he immediately went over and when he got to our house, i was still holding missy in my arms. i just wouldn't let go of her. peepee brought with him a box and a lot of rags to cover missy up. we wanted to bury her and we still have yet to find the proper place for her. i was crying so bad when peepee took her and started wrapping her up. i even took me a few minutes to give her to peepee. i couldn't believe that my little missy was gone and that would be the last time that i'd get to see her.
the next day, i didn't go to work. i had to make sure that missy was ok. my brother and it went to PAWS (along recto avenue) to ask if we can bury missy there. they said no, for the reason that she wasn't their patient and that they don't do outpatient burial services. yeah, right.
so, after speaking with peepee on the phone, my brother and i decided to bring missy back to fil-chineses veterinary clinic. we asked the nurse if we could bury missy there. she said yes. i kept touching the top part of the box where missy's head was resting, bidding her goodbye. i couldn't stop my tears, and i had to cry for a moment while the nurse was filling out the receipt.
she then told us she will be buried in the afternoon, but she will be kept in the freezer for the meantime.
right now, i still have her as my desktop wall paper on my phone and i don't plan on changing it. that picture was taken in marinduque, while she was on the shore, basking in on the sun's warmth and just enjoying the day. i really miss her..
